Here's the thing. Me and my boyfriend split up about a year ago. We had a rough time, though he didn't know I cheated on him the whole time we were a couple. I finally broke up with him when I couldn't stand myself and my two-timing ass anymore. Well, ever since the break-up I've been obsessing over him. I can't get him out of my mind. He was the best thing that ever happened to me, and I blew it out of pure self destruction.
I couldn't stand that a person actually cared for me the way he did. He supported me in every possible way, and I got scared and wondered what the hell was going on. Someone in love with me? Aint happening. He must be out of his mind, he doesn't mean well, something's gotta be wrong.
I "punished" him by screwing around. I know I sound like a freak. Sorry 'bout that. I just want to hear if someone's recognizing him/herself in this behaviour.
I met him this weekend, for the first time in a year. We had sex, talked a lot, and damn, I love that guy. I know it aint the same anymore. He has no reasons to take me back. I can't take it. Can't take that he has moved on, met other girls. Can't get over it, though it was ME who (litterary) fucked up and left him in the first place.
What the fuck am I going to do...
I couldn't stand that a person actually cared for me the way he did. He supported me in every possible way, and I got scared and wondered what the hell was going on. Someone in love with me? Aint happening. He must be out of his mind, he doesn't mean well, something's gotta be wrong.
I "punished" him by screwing around. I know I sound like a freak. Sorry 'bout that. I just want to hear if someone's recognizing him/herself in this behaviour.
I met him this weekend, for the first time in a year. We had sex, talked a lot, and damn, I love that guy. I know it aint the same anymore. He has no reasons to take me back. I can't take it. Can't take that he has moved on, met other girls. Can't get over it, though it was ME who (litterary) fucked up and left him in the first place.
What the fuck am I going to do...