I glorify dying. It is the ultimate relieffor me. Why ccan't i follow throughwith it? Im so frustrated and disappointed in myself. I hate it when people think it's a cry for help but I'm crying because i WANT to do it. Nobody agrees or admit to it, for fear of intervention but that'snot wworking anymore with me. I'm not comfortablein my own sskin and i f####n want to DIE.