I'm 31. In recovery for alcohol and drugs for over a year. Life isn't directly bad, but it's become a battlefield of obsessively thinking about and finding ways to kill myself. I'm currently off my meds which I'm working on. I just don't know anyone equipped to handle me if I try to talk about it. I feel like a ticking bomb. I'll spend hours researching things like <Mod Edit-Methods> in between sleeping 18 hours at a time. I've withdrawn as much as possible from people because I don't know what to say anymore. I don't know what I'm looking for from here but I'm hoping for something . I do have 2 serious attempts that failed which doesn't help because I feel I'm close to the point where I'm about to give no fucks again. Sorry if this was a long post...
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