I was hospitalized twice, the first time for trying to kill myself, the second time because I went crazy after being off of meds for 4 days. My roommate moved out because of all this, and my counselor is going to stop seeing me soon. Some of my friends have distanced themselves from me, and my therapist doesn't know what to do with me. I feel like everyone is leaving me, abandoning me. I'm so tired. I haven't felt good in months, and the hospitalizations did nothing. I still feel the same. I don't know how much longer I can hold out again...