I haven't cut for almost 3 months. Not sure when I stopped or why but I've gotten the sudden urge to start again. After my mother woke up and started rambling about the electric bill. Freaking out about it. Afterwards I sent an e-mail to my brother and asked if I could come stay with him. I'm starting to feel hopeless and tired about life again and I'm getting this feeling in my gut I don't like. A feeling that usually thins when I used to cut. I'm going to try to not but I found my old razor and if this feeling grows I don't know if I could fight it anymore.