I think i might have just a small problem. I've been increasingly using benzos and antipsychotic meds to 'escape'. The benzos were prescribed for sleep and the antipsychotic to take only when i am suicidal and need knocking out so i don't hurt myself :laugh: I'm not overly concerned about overdosing. Well maybe a little but not yet, i've never really seriously attempted, i've fucked around with pills and booze and knives but it's not something i want to 'attempt', if i am going to do it, i am going to do it. Anyway. I found at the right dosages i get kind of high. I spent most of the weekend just sleeping and being half aware. This is not what i want. I know this is bad but i am struggling to cope and this was a readily available option. I'm scared to tell my therapist because she might tell my psych and he won't give me any more pills. I don't know if this is a rant, a hint to myself that i need to take some action or a request for help, although i don't really see it as a major issue, more the opportunity to become one. I don't know. What should i do? Am i overreacting?