I was led to a mental hospital website recently by my therapist. she is trying to get me into an inpatient program there since as so many others have told me, i need intensive help that just talk and meds alone can’t provide. but what i saw on that site stirred something in me that i realize is of a core issue in my troubles. it centers around sexuality. i am really quite angry about it.
the hospital is the new york state psychiatric institute. https://nyspi.org
the image on the top caught my eye right away. and struck me in a sexual way. i suspect that this was intended at least in an unconscious way.
but looking at it a second time, it struck me that this image conveys what i percieve as - what by now should be an archaic issue which at least in the mental healthcare realm should already be long in the past.
the image shows four people walking through a hallway. it conveys something i believe is terribly wrong in our siciety. it being there states to me that the hospital lives by the values of long ago when equal rights recieved very marginal acceptance. the image shows 3 women and 1 man. one can presume that these people are doctors in the hospital. the man is quite a bit taller than the women and what i find so troubling is that the the three women are all gazing at him as they walk. like he has some great importance. I am certain that these 4 all have PhDs. Why, i wonder, are three of them not staring at one of the women instead? are we still back in those “good old days”? this is a mental health facility. are they insisting in remaining in status quo from long ago? where the men are all improtant and the women are there to admire them. one of those women could be making ground breaking change while that man could be sexually harassing his assistant! yet the man is being looked up to. and he is not even looking at any of them. he knows that all attention is on him.
like i said, this issue is core in my mental state. it represents how i perceive myself amongst men and women. there is so much to say about that. i raised my objection to my therapist via text today telling her that i am not opposed to finding treatment in this dark ages mental hospital, but that she can be sure that i will openly push - while in treatment - to have that image taken down and replaced with something that conveys a more healthy commentary on humanity.
my therapist texted back a check mark which is her way of indicating agreement with me. now i just hope my insurance will cover treatment.
the hospital is the new york state psychiatric institute. https://nyspi.org
the image on the top caught my eye right away. and struck me in a sexual way. i suspect that this was intended at least in an unconscious way.
but looking at it a second time, it struck me that this image conveys what i percieve as - what by now should be an archaic issue which at least in the mental healthcare realm should already be long in the past.
the image shows four people walking through a hallway. it conveys something i believe is terribly wrong in our siciety. it being there states to me that the hospital lives by the values of long ago when equal rights recieved very marginal acceptance. the image shows 3 women and 1 man. one can presume that these people are doctors in the hospital. the man is quite a bit taller than the women and what i find so troubling is that the the three women are all gazing at him as they walk. like he has some great importance. I am certain that these 4 all have PhDs. Why, i wonder, are three of them not staring at one of the women instead? are we still back in those “good old days”? this is a mental health facility. are they insisting in remaining in status quo from long ago? where the men are all improtant and the women are there to admire them. one of those women could be making ground breaking change while that man could be sexually harassing his assistant! yet the man is being looked up to. and he is not even looking at any of them. he knows that all attention is on him.
like i said, this issue is core in my mental state. it represents how i perceive myself amongst men and women. there is so much to say about that. i raised my objection to my therapist via text today telling her that i am not opposed to finding treatment in this dark ages mental hospital, but that she can be sure that i will openly push - while in treatment - to have that image taken down and replaced with something that conveys a more healthy commentary on humanity.
my therapist texted back a check mark which is her way of indicating agreement with me. now i just hope my insurance will cover treatment.