Why, just because I have a mental illness is it ok for a doctor speak to me like a piece of shit that does not know their own mind. It takes a lot for me to even use the phone in the first place. So, I spend ages trying to psych myself up to make the call, and when I do, then man was a complete knob. I have been having really bad pain in the right side of my face for a while now. It has gotten so bad I really cannot stand it anymore. So I phone up. Tell the guy what's wrong and he announces,"It's sinusitis". Erm, no, it's not. "Yes, yes, definately sinusitis". No, it's not. I've had sinusitis before and it has never felt like this. "Oh, no no no, it's defiantely sinusitis." So I end up having to make an appointment to see him this afternoon.
Now, it's bad enough me having to use the phone. Now the panic about going outside is building. Then I'm going to have to be touched. I just want to hide. I'm shaking and crying and I can't think straight. I want to cut so much. This is not good.
Why the f*** can't he listen to me? Why is it automatically assumed that people having psychiatric treatment don't know what they are talking about? Aaaaaaaargh! Stupid man.
Now, it's bad enough me having to use the phone. Now the panic about going outside is building. Then I'm going to have to be touched. I just want to hide. I'm shaking and crying and I can't think straight. I want to cut so much. This is not good.
Why the f*** can't he listen to me? Why is it automatically assumed that people having psychiatric treatment don't know what they are talking about? Aaaaaaaargh! Stupid man.