oh god.. help me..

Discussion in 'Rape and Abuse' started by innocencexisxlove, Jul 23, 2008.

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  1. innocencexisxlove

    innocencexisxlove Well-Known Member

    i was molested not too long ago..
    atleast thats what my friend said it was..

    this guy fingered me. but i didn't want him too

    uhggg i freaking out!!
    i wanna die ight now.. so bad..

    i wanna kill myself for being so stupid

  2. Earn

    Earn Well-Known Member

    If you need someone to talk to im here.Pm me or im me on any of my messengers.If you need an ear or anything.

    Im sorry to hear about what happend.
  3. aki

    aki Well-Known Member

    Your friend's right, that guy did molest you. It's not your fault at all, you're NOT stupid. Have you told anyone else about what happened? Like your parents?
  4. innocencexisxlove

    innocencexisxlove Well-Known Member

    No.. no one else knows.. I really wanted to just forget about it..
    And I couldn't tell my parents.. My mom would freak.
  5. aki

    aki Well-Known Member

    :hug: that's understandable. But I don't know...even though it's really hard to talk about it, having to relive the whole thing again...sometimes if you keep something inside of you like that, it can build up and build up, and make you feel worse. Maybe you could see a counsellor or something? I mean, if you don't feel like it right now, thats ok. But if you're thinking about suicide, thats a big warning sign. It's a just such a relief to tell someone sometimes, just to get it off your chest. Have you told anyone how bad you're feeling right now? Like because you can get some help, if you feel depressed or whatever.
  6. innocencexisxlove

    innocencexisxlove Well-Known Member

    well, i just did a police report, because my friend wanted me too..
    that was hard.. she knows how i feel right now.

    uhm, i do have a therapist.. i'm supposed to be seeing her next week on friday..

    idk.. i feel horrible.
  7. famous.last.words

    famous.last.words Forum Buddy

    hunny, im so sorry this happened to you.
    you have done the right thing going to the police, as hard as it might seem.
    if you ever wanna chat, PM me :hug:
  8. innocencexisxlove

    innocencexisxlove Well-Known Member

    :hug: thanks..
  9. aki

    aki Well-Known Member

    aww, i hope you feel better soon. it's good you have a friend to talk with. but really you've done nothing wrong at all, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself, you've been brave to cope with it all and report him.
  10. innocencexisxlove

    innocencexisxlove Well-Known Member

    thanks.. i hope i feel better soon too.
    i'm so so so sore.. but idk.. it should go away

    thanks everyone<3
  11. tyciol

    tyciol Member

    Well, it's either molestation or rape. Something like that I'm not totally sure about, but it was certainly wrong for someone to do something to you you did not want. There's a bit of a lack of information here, were you aware it was happening or passed out or something? If your friend knew about it, were they capable of stopping it at the time in place of you?

    Oh... well stop wanting to die that doesn't make any sense. Intelligence and stupidity are not necessarily the cause of something like this. Plenty of dumb people are really big on self defence and able to stop jerks from molesting them, and plenty of intelligent people can get overwhelmed and be unsure how to deal with problematic situations in the heat of the moment. Basically, you need to calm down and let your emotions stabilize. Wanting to die is quite illogical regardless of the cause, this is a symptom that you must meditate a bit and try not to let the emotions control you too much.

    I sort of think that your thinking you're stupid may be a cognitive distortion. If it's not then prove me wrong and explain what exactly is stupid about getting hurt by someone? If Mike Tyson punched Einstein in the face I wouldn't call Einstein stupid, would you?
  12. innocencexisxlove

    innocencexisxlove Well-Known Member

    No i wouldn't..

    Listen.. thanks everyone.. I think I've calmed down enough..


    I was aware of what was happening, and that's how i knew to get him the hell away frmo me. My friend knew, only because she made me tell her what happened, because she knew i was upset.
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