I thought I was through with the harming but it's all my father's fault. My mom had gotten these new shaving razors and my dad tried one. He accidently cut himself. He told me to be careful because they were extremely sharp. Later I took one into the bathroom and cut. Most of the skin was gone off a section of my upper thigh after I was done and deep. I had to stay there for an hour to make it stop bleeding (then it bled in my sleep). Damn razors. I just feel empty and floating. Like I'm really not in a body but like in some sort of....well I don't know... I just have been feeling sick lately like i'm falling into a void. I just feel empty and I don't feel the cutting at ALL anymore. I have to go pretty deep to feel it.