Shit. Here I go again. I knew this would happen. I can almost pin point the very moment I would be on a total downer for the next few days or so. It's only just occured, like in the last few hours, I could sense it coming, and here I am, down as uck and not a clue what to do about it. I'm gonna miss out all the shit inbetween, but to keep this short im just gonna say, tonight i was surrounded by the beautiful people, my friends, hot girls, rockin bands, but shit just slowed down came to a hlat in my mind alsomt ,boom, there i was surrounded by all this shit going on around me. Bang i was full of hate, i just wanted to kill, or hurt, or even (fuck it) be hurt. Start something to make me feel like i was even fucking there. Started flirting with some chick; some girl I know I could pull and go back to hers (never go back to mine) and have (the ol' cliche'd) one night stand with. But fuck that, fuck her, goodbye in an instant, dont' want to know you. I start to hate my friends hate my peers, hate everyone. I need help and don't know where to seek it, I don't even know if i want it. What do I do? When people ask "Hey u ok?" I'm like "Hey yeah sure, fine! How you?" FUCK cos I actually at tha moment feel FINE. But I'm numb, just numb, nothing else. That is it. just numb. Help. Please. Just respond to this is help. JUST FUCKING SAY SOMETHING.