Well I started going through the process and then did a practice run in my head just before I was going in for it, this is also the first time I have actually come this far, pretty close before but not to the point of doing a practice run in my head. But that taught me a whole lot about appreciating myself and this world, how valuable our time is here, and how lucky we are to be on such a planet going through a very unique evolutionary period. Life is immeasurably valuable.