So my mom saw the scars on my arm and she was MAD. She said why are you doing that? You have no problems you arrogant child. First of all I DO have problems, otherwise I would not do that! Second of all how the heck am I arrogant? My self- esteem is lower than ever. No one notices me, they say I'm quiet and stuff kick, hit and bullying me at school . I know I'm quiet but after a while, it starts to hurt when you say it every 5 seconds. :/ My mom said stop making talking look so hard, you're just lazy. I never heard of a laziness like that before, have you? I diagnosed myself with Social Anxiety, and Depression. My mom laughed and said it was CUTE. What the hell? How the hell is that cute, ever?! I was crying during the school year and my mom turned on the light. She ran over to my dad and said , "look your daughter is crying!" and started to laugh. So I went in the bathroom and she said," you're just going to cry more?" and started to laugh. Everything flooded over me when she said that. Being bullied at school, being noticed by no one, unless they were making fun of me, molestation when I was 8, being bullied by my mom, when I was 6 my dad said he hated me when he thought I wasn't listening. I had a horrible mental breakdown, I stated crying and got in this fetal position, and was actually rocking back and forth. She was still yelling. I dissociated myself but the only thing I can remember was her saying: "you're going to be one of those stupid suicidial people who kill themselves because they're so damn crazy! Go to hell I don't care." Then she started talking about me with my dad, saying I'm so arrogant. Where did that come from?! Well the only one who cares is my dog, he stayed with me the whole time, licking my face, crying when I cried, laying beside me staring at me with those sad puppy eyes, when I was with him, I realized something. He's the only one who cares about me truly in my family, he's my family, I couldn't bear a day without him. I'm crying as I type, I need help seriously. I think about what she said at lest twice a day, I dream about every night, or it appears in a dream I have. I'll die the day my dog Bandit does, because then I would have no will. Thank you.