My mom and I will probably go traveling to Italy soon, within a few weeks... I look like shit, my thigh in particular. Mom is gonna freak out completely if she finds it out... And I'm afraid that she will. I really do regret what I've done, but the thing is that I've PROMISED my family not to do anything more, so I'm afraid that's not enough. I broke my promise weeks ago and I've been scratching my thigh with needles and razors and stuff until it bleeds about everyday since then not deep but my thigh is all red now... I don't know what to do, my mothers reaction will be... Bad, I think. What should I say? I have no words for it, I feel so guilty as I've realized that hurting myself is about equal to hurting my parents isn't it?