Oh these mood swings are killing me

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by ace, Nov 19, 2007.

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  1. ace

    ace Well-Known Member

    These mood swings are killing me badly one minute I could be so jovial and positive the next I'm as miserable and down as hell and have the worst feeling's and thought's.I suffer from bipolar disorder as well so it's obvious but I just can't stand it no more.Believe me when I have that good feeling it's fantastic I wouldn't swap it for anything in the world but when the sadness hit's it's just pure pain.::eek:hmy:sad:
     
  2. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

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  3. RySp123

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    I understand way to much what you mean Ace. You are on a fast cycling mood. Feels like an endless ride on a rollercloaster. Are you on any kind of mood stabilizer? You are BP so you hve been seen by a shrink and meds given, but still you are cycling way too much. You need those meds to be adjusted or changed altogether if not working.

    For the first time in years I haven't felt suicidal or having mood cycling like you have right now. Am not saying I am alright, but cycling is less evident and do not envade me every few minutes. I was going nuts and would have done anythng to stop it. Before it goes out of control, see your doc. and tell him or her what'sgoing on and ask, order, them to help you adjust or change those meds...... go into details about how you feel...... this was my only way to get it though that the meds were not helping and now they listen and did help me before i just off a cliff.

    You can beat it hun, but you must do what is necessary. Ask them their help and do it NOW. Call and ask for emergency apointment and see the shrink asap. It can be helped Ace........... Go for IT hun...... IT WILL GET BETTER.

    Sending you lots of love and please ........... till you get to see the shrink for those meds, keep talking to us as needed....... as much as needed we will behere to help you till then OK

    Am with you all the say Ace.... go for it, i know you can do it. Love, granny.
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  4. ace

    ace Well-Known Member

    Thank's I've had my meds adjusted but I'm not on any mood stabilizer at the moment,The thing is down the years I've been on that many anti d's and nearly all mood stabilizer's to no effect.These mood swings are killing me especially when I get down it hurts that much but I'm trying my best.I see my Dr again next tues I will tell him what's going on.
     
  5. Beret

    Beret Staff Alumni

    Ace :hug: wish i could give you any answer, being rapid cycling bipoar myself :( One second life seems beautiful, the next one everything goes down the drain. For me anti psychotics, mood stabilizer, anti depressants and sleep meds have done a good job; even so im not taking any atm. Hope your doc can give you sth so you feel better.
     
  6. RySp123

    RySp123 Guest


    Good, tues day you will see the pdoc.

    Tell the pdoc. not only how you feel, but
    how it is disturbing your daily life and how
    your days and nights are filled with......
    ya know what i mean here.

    Hun in order to keep mine under 'discreet'
    level, they had to give me 3 different mood
    stabilizers at once.. not one, not two but three
    at the same time plus all the rest for dep. and
    else....... nice meals i have but what the heck
    what helps i will not give it up now that i finally
    can make it through a single day without going
    out of my mind. i have reach the point hwere
    i laugh or cry or scream or talk or else in my sleep
    so go figure how bad it came to. BUT it can be
    stopped....... that is the important point here hun
    and that only a good psi doc can do it ... so go
    for it and ask ask ask ask ask to be given something
    stronger and different, ask abot a combo of mood
    stab. meds..... too I HAD TO BEG FOR IT but at
    the end a combo was given and now much better.

    If you having trouble till next tuesday, feel free
    to pem me ok? will do what i can for you to hang
    on.

    lots of good wishes that you soon find some peace
    and be well

    stay safe hun :hug:
     
  7. RySp123

    RySp123 Guest


    Good, tues day you will see the pdoc.

    Tell the pdoc. not only how you feel, but
    how it is disturbing your daily life and how
    your days and nights are filled with......
    ya know what i mean here.

    Hun in order to keep mine under 'discreet'
    level, they had to give me 3 different mood
    stabilizers at once.. not one, not two but three
    at the same time plus all the rest for dep. and
    else....... nice meals i have but what the heck
    what helps i will not give it up now that i finally
    can make it through a single day without going
    out of my mind. i have reach the point hwere
    i laugh or cry or scream or talk or else in my sleep
    so go figure how bad it came to. BUT it can be
    stopped....... that is the important point here hun
    and that only a good psi doc can do it ... so go
    for it and ask ask ask ask ask to be given something
    stronger and different, ask abot a combo of mood
    stab. meds..... too I HAD TO BEG FOR IT but at
    the end a combo was given and now much better.

    If you having trouble till next tuesday, feel free
    to pem me ok? will do what i can for you to hang
    on.

    lots of good wishes that you soon find some peace
    and be well

    stay safe hun :hug:
     
  8. alwaysincrisis

    alwaysincrisis Well-Known Member

    I empathise completely. I am new and have never spoken to another person who rapid cycles constantly with bipolar. When I've been hospitalised most bipolars were on manic phases.

    I have consistently two depressive episodes and two manic ones every year. I am on two mood stabilizers, antis and anti-psychotics, and they give me some stability for maybe 6-8 weeks of the year.

    I was actively suicidal the last 3 days and out of desperation I joined this Forum. Death has been my friend since I was 13 years old, he's kept me safe from the world. I'm scared to leave my flat and want this to end but there has to be another way.

    Please hold in there.
     
  9. ace

    ace Well-Known Member

    Thankyou dearly my dear friend's it is a terrible feeling going down that path,I'm so sick of it I can barely take any more of it now.My pdoc said to me the other day if this doesn't seem to work the increase in my med's he will get me to see another dr that he know's.The thing is this Dr that he mentioned I know of him and apparently he's not someone who spend's alot of time listening to his patient's.

    I know that as a fact because when I spent time in the private hospital last year he was working there seeing patient's.And I'm not lying he spent a matter of seconds with each patient.I just can't take these mood swing's anymore I'm that tired of the depression,even my Ocd and bdd but at if my depression is lifted at least I will be able to work on the other conditions.

    I did see a specialist dr for my Bdd but for the moment I'm not seeing him as I feel seeing my pdoc is enough for now.I'm just pretty scared of of feeling down it's to much to take,but I'm trying my best.:unsure::eek:hmy::sad:
     
  10. alwaysincrisis

    alwaysincrisis Well-Known Member

    Feeling down is scary as you wonder how low you will go and when and if you will pick up......you are so right to think that once the depression has lifted you can focus on tackling the other conditions. You will feel stronger then.

    Right now I have taken all stress off myself whilst depressed. Just getting up, working, eating and sleeping, no socialising. So I hope that works this time and it doesn't go any lower.

    Mood swings sure suck!!
     
  11. RySp123

    RySp123 Guest

    Well since you have first hand knowledge of that person, AVOID and REFUSE to be refered t him. Tell your psi that if he thinks he can not help you, you will see on your own to replace him. And you'd better off with a new psi altogether than that one that has to seek a friend's seeing you ....... dunno what to do anymore? then plainly admit you cant deal with a problem and let the patient to elsewhere to seek help geezzzzzzzzz he is just making you loose your time and delaying getting the help you really and badly need. I wonder how long this has been gong on Ace? Maybe, Just MAYBE if he had admitted his being powerless in helping you maybe, jsut maybe you would have seen another psi that could have helped you before reaching this low due to fast cycling.

    Would you mind my being crude? GET YOUR AARS outta there and go find another psi...... close to home if possible. Personally i find mid age lets say 40 to 50 or so are the best psi around. but past that age from my experience they are way behind in the field.... not updated or too set in their old ways. not being a generalized rule just what i have come to see by personal experience.

    but jeezezzzzzzzzz outta that office and pdoc. and get a decent one hun...this one is of no good for you trust me...... after what he has said to yo, i'd run for my life literaly speaking ...... sorry but honest here.

    i am on 3 diffrent mood stabilizers and thank goodness with those and the rest i can make it thourgh the day and better..... not round the clock suicidal as i have been for so long...... not lifted completely but enough to partly see the sun here and there through the clouds which is already a big step for me.

    good luck Ace and please consider what i have said ok? lots of love, granny xx
     
  12. ace

    ace Well-Known Member

    Hmmm yeah that's what I'm clearly feeling and thinking because he's said for me to perhap's and most likely see someone else.I said to him about my BDD but he doesn't know much about that area,it makes me feel like he's given up on me or clearly think's he's powerless to do anything else for me.At the moment I'm feeling that shit I don't know what to do anymore I'm at a total loss,today my mood swung about 50 times and it built up in the end I think it may've been a mixture of everything also.

    I just don't know who to see and what to do anymore I feel I'm at a total loss with everything,I'm trying my best believe me I can't believe these illnesses how much they take out of you.:unsure::sad:
     
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