oh whats the point

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by mazdaman, Jun 4, 2008.

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  1. mazdaman

    mazdaman New Member

    i feel so down right now
    i just dont feel im living for me anymore
    sure ive got my wife and kids
    and i love them
    but i dont care anything for me
    everything is such hard work and i feel tired all the time
    i have no friends to speak of
    guess im kinda hard to get along with
    best off on my own i think
    at least i wont upset anyone then
    god i wish i had the guts to end this living joke
    but im such a coward
    maybe thats the punchline
    a man with no intrest in living thats to scared to die
    im only hanging on for my wife and kids
    boy what a waste i turned out to be
    its 10.04 now
    with a little bit of guts i could be gone by 10.30
    but what would i leave ?
    a widow and two heartbroken kids
    what right have i to bring such pain to their world
    so i guess i'll have to keep it in mine
    sorry to dump this at your door
    but gods not answering his phone right now
    and i feel so much like hanging up and going to see him in person
    see you
    mazdaman
     
  2. sparkle.3

    sparkle.3 New Member

    wow, that is exactly how i feel, but im the mom with two kids
    and i feel they would be better off without me anyway. maybe they would be able to be happier. i think i bring them down.
     
  3. RememberLove

    RememberLove Member

    I feel exactly the same! It´s killing me inside to see myself bringing down my son when im in darkness...

    When does it end? Shall I end it? Is it true my son will have it better when I´m gone? It does feel like everyone will have it all better without me hanging around in darkness most of the time...

    Im so lost and confused!
     
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