Not the type to cause any undue trouble, but I don't know what to do. So, a little more than a year ago my wife left me for a couple. We have three kids together and have shared the custody of the kids. I had them alone for a while when she left, but after she came back it's been 50/50. The month she agreed for me to have the house we've always lived in it burned down. The insurance money will not rebuild the house but it'll make it to the point of livable, I think. My mother died six months ago on my birthday. I lost my job. There's more, but those are the big points. I lost the people I talk to and don't know how to fill that void. I have a lot to live for but don't know how to make myself understand that. I called two suicide hotlines, but I'm an honest guy and started both conversations with "I don't exactly have xxx I was immediately given a phone number to my local MHMR location. I'm lost. What do I do except not kill myself? I've got that and I'm working hard to make sure it doesn't happen.