i have spent hours trying to figure what it is im going to do with my life. i have a disability so i am limitted in my ability to find work, but im too depressed to do the jobs i can do because i dont want those jobs, i am only doing them because thery are my only option. i need money to survive but dont have the mental strength to keep a job that i dont want, but in my situation i should be happy with whatever job i can get. what should i do! im trying to apply for this social benafits program in order to recieve moeny, but what if they just tell me that i have to accept whatever job and live with it! is it reasonable to say that i simply CANT! i cant interact with people anymore, i am sick of the world and just want to be left alone, but that doesnt mean i dont need money still. seriously, how do i convince them that i cant do it out of fear, inexperience, and lack of will. im just too dam depressed, maybe if i wasnt physically disabled, i could get a job like security guard or truck driver, those are my dream jobs because i would be all alone. But i cant do those jobs because im legally blind. do i have a claim here or am i being unreasonable? i certainly think not. why should i have to conform? i want to do a specific type of job for my specific wants and needs, but i cant because of something completely out of my control? to hell with that, THEY WILL CONFORM TO MY NEEDS AND GIVE ME THE MONEY I NEED TO SURVIVE. IF I AM DENIED THE MONEY THEN MY LIFE WILL OFFICIALLY HAVE HIT ROCK BOTTOM AND I WILL HAVE NO FUTURE NO HOPE AND NOTHING TO LOSE AND I WILL DO SOMETHING CRAZY LIKE FIRE BOMB THE SPECIFIC WORKER WHO DENIES ME.