im 36, divorced.... actually thats not the bad thing because we broke up very well all things considered.... im in debt so bad no honest man could pay it back... i have two kids that i pay for but i am sure my ex wife spends it on herself and her new man...
im crap at my job,,,, i have only one friend who i am in love with but she doesnt feel the same and uses me as a shoulder to cry on....she said she wants someone like me just not me!!!!
my mother spent my entire childhood telling me i wasnt good enough and now she feels guilty because i ve been diagnosed with depression....supposed to take tablets, came on holiday and forgot them and now ive crashed.... oh yeah and i am sick too....thats my luck right there..
anyway as i said my mum feels guilty so she now babys me so much i cant breathe and i dont even live with her...
my last girlfriend was a real phsyco.... who was still in love with her ex husband and an ex boyfriend at the same time.... she then chose to get rid of me by lting to her whole neighbourhood about me...now i cant trust a woman again even if i wanted to..... yeah i recognise the contradiction... i would trust the girl i mentioned earlier.....
this is NOT how i thought it would be when i was six...... thirty years later the little boy is crying because the man i became ruined his dreams....
i dont want my kids to see what a pathetic man i am when they are old enough to really understand... they would be better off without me.... i wreck lives and i will NOT wreck theirs..... will finish this holiday out of pure bloodymindedness then i m gone....... it took a lot to get me here bit its just buried me...... thanks for reading if you stayed till the end....
im crap at my job,,,, i have only one friend who i am in love with but she doesnt feel the same and uses me as a shoulder to cry on....she said she wants someone like me just not me!!!!
my mother spent my entire childhood telling me i wasnt good enough and now she feels guilty because i ve been diagnosed with depression....supposed to take tablets, came on holiday and forgot them and now ive crashed.... oh yeah and i am sick too....thats my luck right there..
anyway as i said my mum feels guilty so she now babys me so much i cant breathe and i dont even live with her...
my last girlfriend was a real phsyco.... who was still in love with her ex husband and an ex boyfriend at the same time.... she then chose to get rid of me by lting to her whole neighbourhood about me...now i cant trust a woman again even if i wanted to..... yeah i recognise the contradiction... i would trust the girl i mentioned earlier.....
this is NOT how i thought it would be when i was six...... thirty years later the little boy is crying because the man i became ruined his dreams....
i dont want my kids to see what a pathetic man i am when they are old enough to really understand... they would be better off without me.... i wreck lives and i will NOT wreck theirs..... will finish this holiday out of pure bloodymindedness then i m gone....... it took a lot to get me here bit its just buried me...... thanks for reading if you stayed till the end....