I don't know or didn't know where to post this - in SH or SUI or what. Or why even post. I've deleted a few times. Today went downhill quickly and all I can think of now is SI. I can't settle. I've tried music, comedies, other distractions but nothing is helping. Thinking if I start drinking it could help to knock myself out with some meds too. Something has to give here tonight. Am so frustrated with myself. I don't know where/why/what...
The point being hun you are special you do matter and you are cared for hun and i don't want you to harm you ok hugs