Ok

I don't know or didn't know where to post this - in SH or SUI or what. Or why even post. I've deleted a few times.

Today went downhill quickly and all I can think of now is SI. I can't settle. I've tried music, comedies, other distractions but nothing is helping. Thinking if I start drinking it could help to knock myself out with some meds too. Something has to give here tonight. Am so frustrated with myself. I don't know where/why/what...

 

Keep talking here hun ok don't give up on YOU ok hugs

 

Thank you TE, but what's th point? Sh!t, sorry

 

The point being hun you are special you do matter and you are cared for hun and i don't want you to harm you ok hugs

 

Tanks but I don't know what else to do