I dont know what my problem is but I feel that I have some sort of disorder. My doctor just gives me zoloft... she and my parents cant seem to understand that I have a problem rather than me just acting stubborn (anger management) . I stopped medication and theraphy 2 years ago. Everything was fine my parents believe that I am "cured" yet I keep insisting I want to see a doctor coz I know somethins is not right with me because of: I dont have any social life I am so afraid of being embarassed even a lil bit I feel paranoid I keep on thinking about suicide since I was a child I avoid people and looking at them I feel that I am unworthy to be happy or even to have my name be mentioned I have "strange" fetishes I am starting to hate women I talk less ( I already talked less but it worse now) My self confidence is at an all time low I am not like other people but that does not mean I am special I always feel like a trash I dont feel normal I have stopped doing my hobbies Should the Bible have not said that suicide is a sin I have died long ago... So whats wrong with me? Any personality disorder or am I just to weak as a person?