Okay, so I'm no "poet" per se...but

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by AsphyxiateOnMisery, Apr 16, 2012.

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  1. AsphyxiateOnMisery

    AsphyxiateOnMisery Well-Known Member

    I decided to try anyway. It kind of sucks, but it's basically my first time writing a poem since I can remember. I decided to write this to try to remind myself that one bad situation doesn't have to weigh down on me as heavily as I let it. So something shitty happened, so what? Brush it off and move on. You can't change it most of the time and no sense in focusing on it because it just makes us feel worse. Just accept it and let go. The world is still here and it's not the end of it, and most of the time it's probably not even something significant enough to remember weeks or months from now. So why let it affect us today?

    Automatic Thoughts

    These thoughts are like an addict, because they lie
    They upset me so much that I want to die
    But I don't believe him when he says "I didn't use",
    So why do I continue to believe my self created mental abuse?
    In reality, everything is still okay
    My mind says it isn't,
    But I must take everything day by day
    Stop worrying so much about the future and past
    For I become my own bully that way,
    Incredibly fast.
    Haven't I already suffered enough crap?
    I don't need to add on to that
    And fall into the trap
    Of actually believing that I must die
    No, that dumb idea, I do not have to buy.
    Who the hell cares if my mind is telling me it's right?
    I know from experience that it doesn't have the best insight
    I've already learned it tells me things that are untrue
    There's been proof of that based on what I say and do
    There have been times when I thought "holy shit, that was dumb"
    After I said or did something that my mind let me succumb
    To believing is true,
    And that is why, I don't have to do
    Or believe everything it says all the time
    Instead I will believe that everything is just fine
    Because I still have the same future that I did before
    And I will continue to have everything I have now, and more
    But if I die, I won't feel a thing
    I won't feel the relief that death will bring
    It is but nothingness, and theres no point to choose
    Nothing over something, because that way i lose
    everything i don't even yet know i can be
    In the future, because into it I am not able to see
    It won't be filled with misery if I don't let these lies get to me
    So please, allow myself to stop bullying me
    Because one bad situation need not bother me infinitely
    And in reality,
    it holds much less meaning than my mind lets me see
  2. Witty_Sarcasm

    Witty_Sarcasm Eccentric writer, general weirdo, heedless heathen

    I don't think it sucks at all...I think it's well written :)
  3. AsphyxiateOnMisery

    AsphyxiateOnMisery Well-Known Member

  4. AsphyxiateOnMisery

    AsphyxiateOnMisery Well-Known Member

    Ironically enough, later that day after I wrote that, I became severely suicidal again. But I've been trying to bounce back since, and I guess that's the most important part.
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