i've always thoguht about commiting suicide for a while now. i've attempted a couple of times but always chickened out a the end. i always feel like no one cares for me. my parents hate me becuase i'm not perfect, like my sister. i don't get great grades and they want me to even though i try my hardest to. my friends backstab me and sometimes ignore me for no reason. whenever one of my 'best friends' and i are together they always seem like they don't want to talk to me and they go and find someone else to be with. if i died i don't think anyone would care. sure they'd be sad for a day but i know they would get over it because they obviously don't like me. i've been in love with this one amazing guy for a year now and he doesn't even know i exist. he's going off to college soon and i won't be able to be with him. it kills me inside knowing that. i know one of these days i won't be able to take it anymore and my death day will come. it's only a matter of time.