Since '09 I've had on-again, off-again suicidal urges. I was a senior in college and became depressed. There were two things that bothered me: the idea of venturing into "the real world" and the fact I didn't make any close friends. The latter always bothered me, but not too much. As my senior year was drawing to a close I began to feel increasingly lonely and unhappy. My work suffered because of this. I should've graduated but instead I ended up failing most of my classes. Things were okay the next year after I found a part-time job at Borders, but now they've gone to pot again. No classes, no job (Borders closed down). Long story short: I just want out. I'm tired of feeling uncertain and unhappy. I'm 25, about to turn 26. Given the disastrous economy/job market, why should I even bother returning to school? What's there for me? just to clarify things, I started community college in 2003 and graduated spring of '06. I took a year off and resumed my studies in the fall of 2007.