My primary diagnosis was manic-depression type 1 with psychotic features for a very long time. For whatever reason, my psychiatrist decided to change the diagnosis to Mood Disorder Not Otherwise Specified With Psychotic Features. Apparently I broke too out of the mold of manic-depression, or something. That's the only one I mention if I ever have to reveal diagnoses. But other clinicians have tried their own hand at me. One thought OCD, although this is definitely not the case. When I was at the hospital, I was given two personality disorders: Avoidant and Borderline. The neuropsychologist decided on Avoidant Personality Disorder with Borderline Features. I'm not sure what I did to get both Borderline and Avoidant, seems like an odd combo. I can kind of understand Avoidant, since I keep all my friends at a distance because I've never been the best with intimacy. Borderline? Nah. I barely fit any of the criteria. The only ones I do hit are: Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation, delusions or severe dissociative symptoms; and Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days). The others, not so much. But my question is, who cares? What is all this supposed to mean to me? How much of it is valid? Considering that I have two conflicting diagnoses that are impossible to put together, definitely not all of it.