five years ago I had problem with cutting myself. I sought professional help, and with time, overcame the urge. I have many deep scars reminding me of those dark times. a few weeks ago I cut myself again for the first time in a long time. it did not feel good. last night I mutilated my left leg. the scars will not be permanent. until then I am afraid somebody will find out. then everybody will know that I am unhappy and that I cannot control myself. for now nobody knows but me. I am so ashamed.