Hi everyone, I am former member who kind of became inactive a while back, around the time when I began a relationship that seemed to solve all my problems. Now it all seems to be going wrong, and I am in way too far over my head and I don't know how to get out. I've let myself be manipulated and used for so long I feel like I'm starting to lose myself again. But I love this person so deeply, and they have so many good qualities that I am willing to put up with it just to stay with them. But in a way I feel like I'm not ready for such a commitment, and that we may not be right for each other. I am so confused and scared and I can't discuss these things with my significant other. I'm really sorry I can't give out my previous username or any more information on my situation in this post. My significant other often spies on my internet activity, including some of my old posts on here, and I have become extremely paranoid because of it. I desperately need advice, or just someone to talk to. I'm worried that I will start hurting myself again and I don't want my significant other to find out. If anyone has aim or msn and would like to chat please PM me and I will give you my screennames. I really just need to talk about my situation in more detail with anyone who is willing to listen. I think I just need to get all of this off of my chest more than anything. Maybe once I let it all out, I can start to get my head back in order. thank you!