It hides in my mind where even I cannot reach. The mental barriers are impossible to breach. Memories and subconscience thought imprison my soul, Heartache is killing me slowly, my inner battle taking it's toll. Meditation is a state I cannot even perceive, Agony and helplessness are the only feelings I receive. Locked in a war no army could ever win. I am constantly reminded of my heart of sin. No human could possibly comprehend how I feel. I didn't think being this far from God was real. My mind is like a black hole looming in outer space, I cannot wait to pass on and get away from this place. It's just not fair that hell is the consequence for taking one's own life, I just want my pitiful existence to end, I am sick of the fucking strife. Is anyone out there? Does anyone feel the same? That is what I was afraid of I am all alone in this. My face is something not even my father would miss. Here I am again pouring my soul onto a screen. I wonder if anyone will know what I mean.