My skin is burning, I think I must be possessed or something. Everything hurts. I just took three xanaxes and a shot of Nyquil, I really can't handle the anxiety attacks. Or are they attacks? Someone mentioned on a livejournal group that it sounded like I had Chronic Dysphoria. Does anyone know what that is? Is that different from schizophrenia? I am treating my schizophrenia. Taking a pill every night when I go to bed, it's a pain in the ass but it beats catatonia and confusion. I am so confused. God help, is anyone out there? I have felt so long gone for so long now, I think my only way out is death. I told my dad I wanted to be committed or commit myself and he's like "You don't seem to need this, you're not psychotic...or anything..." But I am suicidal and the anxiety and ringing in my ears, the epilepsy it's like my nerves have come undone. Shit, I don't know what to do. I am kinda losing it. I have separation anxiety to, social anxiety, anxiety, heart arrhythmia, confusion. I just got a new doctor because my last one didn't know squat about MI yet he had a doctoral PHD and he couldn't give a damn what I was on nor remember I was on anything in the first place. I am not a lunatic, though, and I am not like crazy shit I don't know why people are so stigmatized who have that condition. Every time I try to eat I feel like throwing up. I can't take a shower because it makes me feel hurt, like it hurts my skin, and I can't tell people this...this is the only place I would ever just vent all my problems, but I really have no where else to turn to right now. Sorry, rambling....please answer soon if you can.