over the last year and abit things have only got worse. i have depression, and its getting worse, over the last year i have found it very difficult to find the fun, good sides of life, and i have been putting up with suicidal thoughts for awhile. now i am in a state where i am either really depressed, and sometimes want to end my life. and other times when i dont understand why i would even think of doing it. these diffrent moods seem to change more and more as each day goes past. this is really starting to have a huge impact on my life, i dont feel like doing anything, and i dont even go to social events anymore, i dont see the point.