my husband and i have been having problems for a long time... maybe in years not so long, but compared to the amount of time we've been together it feels like it. I have two suicide attempts. One when I was 12, 6 months after a stranger rape. The last one about 4 years ago... I opened up a lot of my heart when I met my husband, and now those feelings are being used against me. When he looks at me, it is without respect or love. Without going into my whole story, my question is this... Can I heal without solid support from him? Is this a healthy place to be?