i dont know what to do. I'm on the verge of cutting myself. i want to die, i feel i need and deserve to die. I feel like I am always there for people, always helping which trust me i thrive upon b/c i care more about others than i do myself. BUT the one time i ask for help the ONE fuckin' time.....nothing. So i see my value here, I see my value to others and i accept my fate. I accept that I deserve to die, that I should slit and it won't fuckin' matter in the end...that no one here will notice and no one here will miss me b/c there was nothing to miss. My usual rantings that really went unnoticed. I feel more alone than ever, i feel so empty, so fuckin numb. I don't care anymore...ive given up on caring and the resolution is to make it all go away. I'm sorry to those that have talked to me....that maybe even tried a little or fought a little....but it doesnt matter.