I started cutting as a kid, stopped for a long time,and started again a few years ago. Then I stopped again for a little over a year only to start again about a week ago. I read what everybody else says about cutting and why they do it, what it does for them, and it only makes me feel worse. Once again, I'm different and don't fit in wih anyone else. I cut, especially during a crisis, because it is the ONLY thing that allows me to redirect my focus from suicide. It isn't about the pain, hell, most of the time it doesn't hurt. So I've never been able to come up with a better coping skill for my suicidal ideation. My brain starts racing, thoughts come pell-mell one after another, almost like they aren't my thoughts but instead are being fed into my mind by some outside source. When that starts, cutting has been the only thing that is successful EVERYTIME to redirect my brain. I'm not sure why I posted, I guess I'm just curious if there is anyone ese like me, or am I really so different?