Once again

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by ineedtohelpher, Dec 28, 2010.

  1. Why does this always happen?
    Everything is going better than it ever has before, i could stay frozen in a single moment being the happiest person ever, have everything and everyone I need...
    Then it FUCKS up.
    And i'm back to being paranoid, lonely and stupid
    It was all so perfect, and now like I was anticipating... its gone crappy again
    I love her :/ I know she loves me... but it just always messes up!
    It always works out again... but i hate it
    I hate this bit
    The getting through till something amazing happens again
    Knowing that it will is the only thing that keeps me going
    None of you care, but she is the only one I talk to without feeling like a twat... cause no one else knows every detail...
    'Suicide form' I don't know why i'm wasting your time, i'm not suicidal at all in the slightest, by the time you've finished reading this someone else could have needed help :/
    I just want to type... I'd joined here for her so I could understand her more...
    I hate it
    I hate how once thinks have happened no matter now much I want them to go back... they cant :/
    I hate how much I love her, how much it kills me when she shuts me out... not knowing...
    The fear of me being the reason she does things.
    :i'm sorry:
  2. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Why don't you introduce her to the forums?? Maybe she will get something out of it..