I originally submitted my story back in the spring. Although it took some time, I eventually became better and little more myself. But then in September things took a turn for the worse once again. I'll keep this brief and to the point. I lost my job(fired to be more precise) and as a result, in some sense I lost my friends as well. I've applied everywhere, every place of business within a reasonable distance and, as you can guess with the economy in it's current state, have had no luck. I'm going stir crazy as a result of being cooped in this godforsaken house day in and day out. I've no running vehicle and even if I lived within walking distance(I don't) to the nearest place of business, it's December. So even if I get lucky and find someone who'll hire me, I'm gonna have a hell of time getting back and forth to work. And the loneliness, god the loneliness, has really taken it's toll on me these past few weeks. Realizing that I'm lonely and admitting it makes me feel pathetic. Which it should. I'm a sad sap and know it. Yet I feel helpless to do anything about it. There's more, but that's gist of it, so I'll just get to the point. I've decided to do It. You know what the "It" is that I'm talking about. But I've also decided to wait until after the New Year. The impending holiday season will be depressing enough as it is for my family, so there's no need to add to that. I'm not that sad of a sap. So I have about a month for someone to help change my mind. I'm skeptic, but I came here as a last resort. You know, before the final last resort.