I cant do it anymore, emotionally im so tired of being sad. I cry everyday, and its always about the same things. The same things that i have completely no control over. There is nothing left to talk about really. The facts are the facts, my mother is dying, so i'm losing her very soon. My grandmother is very old and only has a few years left. And my gf, the only person that ever loved me that wasn't related to me, might leave me. As many of you know yesterday i tired to get her back which led to sorta a big fight that was fixed. And i asked her if she thought we were going to get back together and she said "yeah" and she just said that she was going to tell me to get back together. That should be a good thing right, but my mind keeps telling me that shes going to find someone better, that I'm just her plan B in case she cant find anyone else. I cant do this anymore, the uncertainty is too much. If one more major bad thing happens in my life i will be gone...i feel so certain of that, and it scares me. I don't know what to do. I already have it all planed out...but i cant say it because i don't want to give anyone any ideas. I cant do it anymore...its too much, I want to thank all of you for helping me through to this point. But being completely alone is something i cannot bare...so i don't know what to do right now. Other then to wait, and hope things work out, even though i know they wont.