I am triggered as heck... trying to remind myself that I have been here before and pulled things off..
I have my algebra final tomorrow... ii am in a good position to get the grade I want in the class.
Still... as I study I find the old thoughts crossing my mind...
Why wait for death when you know you are going to fail?
I should not think this way because it is not necessarily true... there is a chance I pull things off.
Even if I do pass I am no closer to a career
This unfortunately is true.
Go do something expensive to destress
I will not manage my money like a suicidal person.
Despite all of this... I am scared as hell right now... I hate tests, I hate failure... I wish I did not feel this way and part of me still thinks I shouldn't... but dang.
I have my algebra final tomorrow... ii am in a good position to get the grade I want in the class.
Still... as I study I find the old thoughts crossing my mind...
Why wait for death when you know you are going to fail?
I should not think this way because it is not necessarily true... there is a chance I pull things off.
Even if I do pass I am no closer to a career
This unfortunately is true.
Go do something expensive to destress
I will not manage my money like a suicidal person.
Despite all of this... I am scared as hell right now... I hate tests, I hate failure... I wish I did not feel this way and part of me still thinks I shouldn't... but dang.