If I read another thread or post about someone WANTINGto get cancer I swear I will fucking loose it!! I HAVE CANCER! If you want it come and take it. I never asked for it, or begged for it or even thought about it. I have been suffering 3 long years with it. It tears away at me everyday. It puts constant fear into my 4 children. And I am forced to go through this alone. Trust me, you don't want it. And it plays with you too. My docs and I thought it was gone, but I just found out it is back and stronger than ever!! Too much for weak pathetic me!! What makes others think it would be a good way to suicide? The most ridiculous thing I have ever heard. I figure most people that want to suidcide are trying to end their pain, not prolong it. So please stop wishing for it. Someday you may find out you got your wish!!!