I think if I attempt one more suicide act, I really will die. Therefore, I fight my thoughts and urges to kill myself daily. I wish I had a plan, but I don't. That's probably meant to be. I believe in Divine Intervention because last time I almost died and experienced an out-of-body episode and seeing bright lights with my family's faces saying "hello" to me. I don't know much of the interpretation, but I don't think I will survive if I do one more attempt. I am still tempted daily to kill myself, but I do distractions and grounding to keep me in touch with reality. As long as those work and other coping skills, I will be ok. I hope I will. Peace to everyone.