Probably one of the biggest reasons for me being so alone and depressed and suicidal is that one of my closest friends committed suicide last year. We were really close, and I knew she had emotional problems and stuff (this was before I ever thought seriously about suicide) but I never really understood. I tried to be there for her, but then one day she showed up to school with a tee-shirt on with cuts all over her wrists and that really shook me up. I asked her what had happened and if she was ok, and she said she was fine. But then about a week later she killed herself. I miss her so much, and I can't really talk to any of my friends about it because none of my other friends really liked her. She was different from any friend I ever had and I really loved her. I don't even know why she did it. I wish I could have understood and been there for her and I wish I could have helped her through it.