just feels like things are falling apart. my t is unavailable this week. I've managed to let my crazy out in interactions with others and it wasn't taken well. someone may have some new health issues and I'm worries it's cancer. I can't go through all that again. selfishly I can't. finances are concerning. new meds don't appear to be helping. I'd like to hide and disappear from all atm. I feel very alone.