It's just one of those nights where things have quickly gone south. I've been bored out of my mind for the last 2 weeks, which isn't good for my thinking patterns. But I've been making it through. now tonight I feel like I've been ditched. I found out a friend was having a get together and was planning on going to a place I've wanted to go to for the last 5 years but have never had anyone to go with. But I wasn't invited. So I ask another friend if she wanted to go out to get something to eat and she said no. No biggy but then I talk to her a maybe half an hour later and she's not home. She's gone out to a sports bar that our group goes to regularly. It could be that she's on a date but i wish she would have at least told me that instead of just saying no. Now I feel like I'm just not good enough. I've been trying to fix my life and one way is to try dating. I've tried the online thing and I tried in person as well. I've done coffee a few times now but it's a little disappointing because none of the girls I have messaged have given any response. I've only had girls message me first and unfortunately I don't feel a nromantic attraction to any of them. But I still reply back because who knows and I like meeting new people. I'm just wondering "why bother" again. I haven't felt like I used to but I've never stopped wondering, what the point is. I think it would be for the better if I was just gone.