i don't feel like there's ever anything new.
my parents used to hit me and my siblings, and once we reported it, they didn't touch us anymore, but they still yell. a lot. if you could think of an awful name, i've probably been called it. i've been the fat kid, the stupid kid...
in fact, people meow at me and harass me because it makes me feel comfortable and secure to wear kitty cat ears and a tail...
they always find some reason to say something awful to me. i haven't dressed like a cat in ages because i'm afraid of what they'll say. i don't really have anyone around me that i can trust. my sister no longer lives near me, and people are constantly pulling away from me. i keep getting sick and i don't know why. its just....too much... i'm falling behind in school, i don't have anyone around me to talk to, and it hurts to do most things...
i'm just losing the point of being here.
i actually did tell someone, but they gave me the same excuse i usually hear when people talk about suicide....
'people do care about you'... really? why don't they show it?
'suicide is the easy way out'... i'd probably take easy over anything. i was never one for the hard path...
or even 'aren't you christian? you know you'll burn in hell for that'
and i think, so what? i fornicated with someone i thought loved me and i even had to sneak and pay my way for my own abortion because he didn't want me and i was too young to have a child. i'm already going to burn in hell for killing that child.
there's nothing left for me here... i've gone over all of it. no one talks to me, no one really supports me... some of my teachers even make fun of me....
i'm just so tired.
i don't want to have to do this anymore
there's no point
my parents used to hit me and my siblings, and once we reported it, they didn't touch us anymore, but they still yell. a lot. if you could think of an awful name, i've probably been called it. i've been the fat kid, the stupid kid...
in fact, people meow at me and harass me because it makes me feel comfortable and secure to wear kitty cat ears and a tail...
they always find some reason to say something awful to me. i haven't dressed like a cat in ages because i'm afraid of what they'll say. i don't really have anyone around me that i can trust. my sister no longer lives near me, and people are constantly pulling away from me. i keep getting sick and i don't know why. its just....too much... i'm falling behind in school, i don't have anyone around me to talk to, and it hurts to do most things...
i'm just losing the point of being here.
i actually did tell someone, but they gave me the same excuse i usually hear when people talk about suicide....
'people do care about you'... really? why don't they show it?
'suicide is the easy way out'... i'd probably take easy over anything. i was never one for the hard path...
or even 'aren't you christian? you know you'll burn in hell for that'
and i think, so what? i fornicated with someone i thought loved me and i even had to sneak and pay my way for my own abortion because he didn't want me and i was too young to have a child. i'm already going to burn in hell for killing that child.
there's nothing left for me here... i've gone over all of it. no one talks to me, no one really supports me... some of my teachers even make fun of me....
i'm just so tired.
i don't want to have to do this anymore
there's no point