I was fired today from my new job through no real fault of my own, just two days into working. I have been out of work for a year since graduating and I was relying on this to provide me with some purpose, experience and income, as every other opportunity had fallen through and all my other job hunting had been unsuccessful. I have lost all hope now, my life is just one problem after another. In the last month there has been a dramatic decline in my mental health; deep depression and anxiety and feeling suicidal which I guess has been building for a while and lately I am completely breaking down. I just want to give up and die, nothing ever works out for me and people constantly let me down. I have lost faith in humans and I've lost faith in myself. I just don't have the energy to fight anymore, all my efforts just seem in vain. Last week I had every reason to end my life, all my problems have been building up over time and it all seems insurmountable. Whilst this job opportunity came as an unwelcome stress during this particular period of depression, in another way it has been the thing getting me out of bed the last two days and out in the world, and now this is no more, I feel like a complete failure. I am embarrassed as I've told people I know that I got this job, and I feel I won't be able to get another job now as it was hard enough securing this one, and I am so depressed now I don't even know where to start with picking my life up. Long periods of time without real purpose in my life, and issues of low self esteem due to unfair way people have treated me is a big contributor to my depression and anxiety, and now I have to deal with all if this again! I just want to give up and die. I can't see any reason to continue. Life is too unfair.