hello crossfire,
You shouldn't kill yourself, especially if you have a son at the age of 15, he's still young so he still needs his mother. I know that it would be really devestating to him to lose his mother, cuz I'm 16 and my mother is al I have and if she would die I would definetly kill my self by the pain her dead would cause. Off course I don't know how your son would react but I'm sure he would be really devestated. And hearing (or actually reading) you're a single mom means that you are the only one your son can rely on. And do you know how some children react if something goes wrong between their parents, the children would think they've cuased it, that they're the blame. you don't want your son to think that he did something that made you want to kill youself, do you ? and off course you shouldn't only live becuase off your son, also try to think of the bright sight of live, and try to find support from someone, go talk to somebody about your problems, I'm sure there are people that would listen to your problems and that are willing to help you, you just need to find them.