Last week I was in the kitchen (always a high danger area! :tongue and it was like I went into a trace and the next thing I knew, I was carving into my wrist with a steak knife. It felt soooooo good, as I had banned myself from cutting my wrist for months!!! I hadn't SHed in a bit less than a month prior to this incident. the urges were gone and I was coping, but since this slip up, it seems as if some of the urges are back. Two nights ago I again found myself on my bed cutting into my hip. I didn't enjoy it as much, but still I feel the need to do it. Can we ever be free from SH?