One step closer

[achtland]

Well, I've written my letter. It's not the best that I've ever written and it was just thrown together. It probably still won't make anyone feel any better.

Should a farewell letter be well written and explain things clearly? I'm thinking not or it would be a novel, I don't think there is any way I could explain things clearly, I would end up going round in circles and tying myself in knots.

 

[Seerbrum]

Well if you keep working on it, you may just get a book deal and not have a reason to kill yourself... that would be ideal.

But lets get to the root of this problem, Why write the letter? Why not tell the person directly? Why not tell some one? Maybe they can change your mind, because a human voice is much better then a forum post.

I understand, I've written many of letters, threw'em all out. You wanna know why? Because that feeling, is temporary.

I don't know you, I can't give you much of any answer, but I can tell you that the letter will never be good enough, and will never be able to excuse your death. Maybe you shouldn't stop writing, write till it hurts, write till you can't write anymore. And then honestly look at yourself in the mirror and ask "Is this worth it?"

If you have the energy and desire to write a suicide note, why not summon that same energy to find a reason, any reason to live. Why end your life needlessly when it can be used. Yes a life can be used, you are a person, you have a will of your own, and when there is a will... my friend there is way.

If you really hate yourself that much to die, why not just use the body and mind you were blessed with to actually help people who want to live, you never know, you might just feel better about yourself in the end. I know I do.

Just PM if you ever wanna talk. I'm not being hard on you, I just want you to open your eyes.

 

[mdmefontaine]

hey. your 'first responder' made an excellent point. . . . . several. . .. but truthfully.

your 'LETTER' . . is like a statement of your life. and you cannot boil your life down to one letter.

because - life - is not static. it moves, grows, changes. each moment.

the very next moment from now - your life may CHANGE .
tomorrow -
or the next day
don't give up - because there is so much love and joy out there - (hey, i know pain or i would not be here. i am no pollyanna.. . ) but. . . i just hold on because the sheer BEAUTY of life is too amazing, to leave behind.

talk to us. talk to someone. (but. if you have no one, we ARE here) i am here. pm me, whatever.
but don't take your life force from this world. we all need you . :hug:

 

[Stranger1]

Hey achtland,
We are here for you!! Talk to us and let us help to support you. If you aren't comfortable talking out loud on the forum then PM any of us and have a one on one coversation.
If you feel you are that desperate to end it then you need to go to your local ER and take your letter with you. Ask to speak with someone in mental health because you are suicidal. Let that person read your letter. They will probably admit you for at least seventy two hours to evaluate what the problem is and how they can treat it.
There is nothing to fear about being in the hospital. They are very professional. The nurses are usually pretty nice, and they have floor techs to make sure your needs are taken care of and to make sure no one bothers you. It's not like you see on TV with all kinds of carzys running the joint. I only tell you this because I don't want anything to happen to you. You will find friends here and they will be very supportive of you. I hope you stay safe!!!~Joseph~

 

[Petal]

:hug: I'm sorry you feel this way

I hope you can find the strength to pick up the pieces and carry on :hug: