Im new here and I kinda just came across this page while letting my mind harm me again. Last summer, June 23 I tried to kill myself. Its been a rough journey since than. Now I feel back in that boat. After not having a job for a year while on working on my health, I decided to seach a new job. Been at this new job for only three weeks. It feels like Im reliving my nightmare of working at my old job last year where a manager made me feel worthless. This manager is a rude person who just makes his workers feel so emotional. My third shift working I felt like crying because of how he spoke to me. His excuse to why he speaks to his workers like this is to "tough them up to deal with the drunken customers who come in to the pizza shop". I dont understand how someone can be this rude and cuss and scream at his workers. I have done everything I could to prove myself. I have came in on my days off to help others. Even today I was sent home way early only because I messed up once..ONCE on an order. I felt so stupid and he made me feel that way. I was helping with everything today while trying to do my part. Its like Im not any good. All he could say to me is "dont need anyone else fucking up today. Clock out and go home" Im stuck on what to even do anymore. I cant sleep and even think right. I feel like I am back at square one. I just want to feel like Im worth something and not failing at everything.