Ongoing War Crying herself to sleep Wishing for the war to end The exhustion is too much for her The batles never seem to end Praying for an end, any end To the craziness and wounds That always get worse and worse THat she experiences Suffering in silence Smiling o the world She can't let on something's terribly worng If they find out, she'll get blammed The war will escallate To a level never seen It's not in the news, It can't be read about For this war is in herself Afraid to let them down Afraid to appear weak Trying to act OK With enimies everywhere Tearing her down She wears a suit of armor Being aware of all threats From her many enimies They are her own her family They'll blame her for what's gone on She says to herself "it's not my fault" Wishing for the courage to say it to the world The courage never comes, she stays to herself They fire their bullets Hoping to bring her down At times they succeed It looks like they won Then she gets another breath She finds more strength They're words continue to sink in She becomes even a worse enemy To herself that is Surrounded on the out and in She's trapped, no where to go She keeps to herself, seeking perfection Hoping to turn the enemies away THis is unlike any war or battle even seen There is no place to hide No place safe, for even a second Her space is even unsafe The enemies invade her thoughts Until she believes them all You're no good they say This is all your fault, you deserve it all We won't let you escape You're ours forever, until your death Death, she contemplates, seems heavenly No more torture, no more hurt, no more her They will be better, she will be better Everyone and everything would be better The only way out of this war is death She screams to herself "I WON'T QUIT!!!" "I WON'T LET THEM WIN!!!!" Confused, she tries to figure a place to hide She needs to rest, to feel ok, for even 5 minutes No place like this can she find Does it exist? she ponders No more answers or ideas come She continues to cry Wondering do I really have to die? Is that the only way out of this war?