You don't get it. No one does. Only me. I'm doing this for you. Helping myself in the process. One reason i'm still here. Walk away from that means i can get what needs to be done. Ya see if you distance yourself from people you care and love then it makes it a whole lot easier. Reducing the hurt that they may feel. I mean. Distance settles feelings down a bit, hence reducing the hurt. I'm trying to save you the pain. Yeah only i get it. Only i get why this is good for me as much as it hurts. Thank you.